“There is an inner beauty about a woman who believes in herself, who knows she is capable of anything that she puts her mind to. There is a beauty in the strength & determination of a woman who follows her own path, who is not thrown off by obstacles along the way. There is a beauty about a woman whose confidence comes from experiences; who knows she can fall, pick herself up, and move on.”—(via cellyfranco)
The weather channel is telling me to take shelter immediately. Instead, I’m standing by the window watching the storm come in. This lightning is outrageous! I may or may not be watching for a cow to fly by.
She's trying to get better, she's trying to be happy. She's trying to smile everyday and not be bothered to be asked "Are you okay?" questions all the time. She trying really hard to smile, and act right. But somewhere in all of this, she's losing herself. She's fading away. Don't you realize?
I’ve had a really, really horrible, terrible, no good, very bad day.
My school had our lottery for rotation sites (where I’ll be from january 2012 to may 2013). I am literally the only one of my group of 20 friends that didn’t get the city they wanted. So now I’m stuck in Memphis, unless I can convince someone to trade with me. I’m devastated. I’m desperate to move closer to my family and heartbroken that I may be stuck that far away and alone. I managed to hold it together during the lottery process, but as soon as I ran to my car (actually ran) I was sobbing and continued to cry on the 6 hour drive home.
I feel forgotten. Nothing I want with all my heart ever seems to go my way. I’ve always struggled with the notion of “fairness” and think that if you do the right thing, good things should happen to you. This is, unfortunately, not how my life has worked out thus far.
My mom told me to pray for peace about the situation, but I’m really struggling with it.
At this point, you are all aware I’m no stranger to the sauce. I like to drink blah blah it’s old news by now. However, what you might not know is that I’m also a big fan of drinking responsibly. And yes, that means no drinking and driving ever because I’m not a fucking moron asshat. But…
How can you say that you are alone this Valentine’s Day when I am here watching over you, when I’m standing right here madly in love with you? I care for you so much- and I showed this by sacrificing my very life for you. You were worth every nail, my dear. And yes, I know that you might feel like My love is different from the love you can recieve from another human being. You might say that the love that I offer you just isn’t the same. And my heart breaks to hear so many people say that- am I not enough? I’m trying so hard to get your attention. Look up. You see the sky- so vast and unending. I made that for you. The oceans, the majestic mountains, the elegant flowers that grow in the most unexpected places- I made those for you too. And oh, how My heart skips a beat at the sight of your smile. You are My creation. I love you so much. You make Me proud. I know that your heart sinks at the sight of couple after couple hand- in- hand this Valentine’s Day. But please, just trust Me. I have that special person for you- who loves Me than they will ever love you. They are so special to Me, too. And the moment that you two will be united will be even more special because you will both know that you waited My perfect timing. I have a plan for you that is so beautiful. Just rest in My promises. I never break them. Rest in My love. I will never let you go. Please, just trust Me. Many may have broken your heart, but I promise you that I never will. You are so dear to Me.
With all My love,
I am my Beloved’s, and my Beloved is mine. -Song of Solomon 6:3
“Shes the type of girl who responds to guys who smile at her because she wants to be friendly. She is the type of girl who stares hard at the board when she does not understand what the teacher is teaching. She is the type of girl who acts like a kid because she misses her childhood. She is the type of girl who’d rather get hurt by truths than lies. She is the type of girl who wishes for good things for people she loves. She is the type of girl who stays loyal to one guy when she learns how to love. She is the type of girl who holds on to memories even if it hurts. She is the type of girl I am.”—